The Truth hurts
I promised Ked I'll put this in my next post:
We were having a casual talk in his car and struck upon the topic of treatment by friends. People come and go in our lifes, there are times where a particular person treats you exceptionally well for various reasons, but will he do that for the rest of your life? And so how do you feel if that particular person stop being nice to you?
I guess if you think someone is a worthy friend, you will treat him even better as time goes by. Don't just treat someone nice just because of ulterior motives and gives disappointment later when you stop liking him. Self reflection time: For the past 5 - 10 years, who has been around for you when you needed someone? Who has sincerely treated you as a friend? Who has been looking after you and not at all calculative with you?
Had a jog in the evening, it was drizzling, but i guess i need a run off from my emotions. After so many days, it came down on me finally. I avoided everything, put up a happy face for the past weeks, carried on working, pretend that nothing much has happened.
I was jogging in the park, no one around as it was raining, tears fell. It was then i realised that i did miss him. Scenes after scenes flashed through my mind:
What is the feeling if you found out that your partner cheated on you, not once, but many times?
How would you feel if he slept with someone right in your very own house?
How would you feel if your friend knew about it but kept it to themselves?
And how does it feel when you try your best to support someone financially but you realised after one year that all was just fake excuses?
And finally, how does it feel like when all of the above strikes you at the same time? And no one is righteous enough to stand up for you, and people thinks that you have asked for it since you get such a young kid for your partner. Who have realised that I actually felt so 委屈 and helpless? And the intense pain that I went through in facing all the truths, the truth hurts, it really hurts.
I guess i don't really blame anyone, just really disappointed that things happened in such a way. Be it love or friendship, I did put in my heart and soul in managing it, but i guess i'm a failure. I don't wish to cry, but i guess it's natural when one is sad, I never wanted to appear weak, but i think i need to face my emotions somehow.
I guess it's fate afterall, thanks to a kind soul who enlightened me about everything. And most of all, a big hug to my dearest buddy Ked, thank you for being there for me.
I've changed my bed sheets, a heart warming birthday gift from Ked to let me forget the past.
I've changed my mobile phone.
I've changed my ring.
I've changed my bag.
I'm changing myself.
Can i change my heart? I really hope i can.
An Angel's Tears
I took your hand from the hell you were from
Love began
Satan desires desouled the angel
You forsaked me
Love ends
Fear not,
For I have wings to fly up high
From above
I watch how darkness befalls you
We were having a casual talk in his car and struck upon the topic of treatment by friends. People come and go in our lifes, there are times where a particular person treats you exceptionally well for various reasons, but will he do that for the rest of your life? And so how do you feel if that particular person stop being nice to you?
I guess if you think someone is a worthy friend, you will treat him even better as time goes by. Don't just treat someone nice just because of ulterior motives and gives disappointment later when you stop liking him. Self reflection time: For the past 5 - 10 years, who has been around for you when you needed someone? Who has sincerely treated you as a friend? Who has been looking after you and not at all calculative with you?
Had a jog in the evening, it was drizzling, but i guess i need a run off from my emotions. After so many days, it came down on me finally. I avoided everything, put up a happy face for the past weeks, carried on working, pretend that nothing much has happened.
I was jogging in the park, no one around as it was raining, tears fell. It was then i realised that i did miss him. Scenes after scenes flashed through my mind:
What is the feeling if you found out that your partner cheated on you, not once, but many times?
How would you feel if he slept with someone right in your very own house?
How would you feel if your friend knew about it but kept it to themselves?
And how does it feel when you try your best to support someone financially but you realised after one year that all was just fake excuses?
And finally, how does it feel like when all of the above strikes you at the same time? And no one is righteous enough to stand up for you, and people thinks that you have asked for it since you get such a young kid for your partner. Who have realised that I actually felt so 委屈 and helpless? And the intense pain that I went through in facing all the truths, the truth hurts, it really hurts.
I guess i don't really blame anyone, just really disappointed that things happened in such a way. Be it love or friendship, I did put in my heart and soul in managing it, but i guess i'm a failure. I don't wish to cry, but i guess it's natural when one is sad, I never wanted to appear weak, but i think i need to face my emotions somehow.
I guess it's fate afterall, thanks to a kind soul who enlightened me about everything. And most of all, a big hug to my dearest buddy Ked, thank you for being there for me.
I've changed my bed sheets, a heart warming birthday gift from Ked to let me forget the past.
I've changed my mobile phone.
I've changed my ring.
I've changed my bag.
I'm changing myself.
Can i change my heart? I really hope i can.
An Angel's Tears
I took your hand from the hell you were from
Love began
Satan desires desouled the angel
You forsaked me
Love ends
Fear not,
For I have wings to fly up high
From above
I watch how darkness befalls you
posted by Jaron @ 3:34 AM
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