I Cried
I cried reading the smses you've sent.
I cried holding on to the phone but u didn't answer.
I cried looking at the 2 blackies.
Staring blankly at the comp for 2 days. Seems like a zombie now. When love takes the wrong path, it becomes hurt. Locked myself in the room, reflecting on all that had happened...... was it really fated? Guess he did the right thing, leaving someone who doesn't know how to support him when he needed him.
Overheard mum talking on the phone last week. She's having problems with dad. "I know the kids will follow me if we split." Shocking....... I have no courage to face what is ahead. They had a fight on sunday i guess, the room door knob practically cracked. Mum locked the door in anger i guess. Will they divorce? Sigh.... Another down period....I wished he's was with me, but it's too late.
Seems like it's another prank heaven played. When I wanted to let go, he asked for a chance to continue our path. I thought we could walk it through together. Never thought that he could leave me to continue this path alone...... 对他而言，这只是一个未实现的诺言，对我而言，却是一道很深的伤疤。
"Making your partner happy when he is sad. This is the most contented thing i would feel. " This is what he told me. I failed to do so. I told him my only happiness now in life is you, and if you gonna leave, i will fall. I really fell, into a deep ravine that i can't seek the way out. Tears just fall unconsciosly.
I force myself to sleep...It's the only time i don't think of him. The feeling when i wake up is so painful, the thought of him not in my life anymore.
I cried holding on to the phone but u didn't answer.
I cried looking at the 2 blackies.
Staring blankly at the comp for 2 days. Seems like a zombie now. When love takes the wrong path, it becomes hurt. Locked myself in the room, reflecting on all that had happened...... was it really fated? Guess he did the right thing, leaving someone who doesn't know how to support him when he needed him.
Overheard mum talking on the phone last week. She's having problems with dad. "I know the kids will follow me if we split." Shocking....... I have no courage to face what is ahead. They had a fight on sunday i guess, the room door knob practically cracked. Mum locked the door in anger i guess. Will they divorce? Sigh.... Another down period....I wished he's was with me, but it's too late.
Seems like it's another prank heaven played. When I wanted to let go, he asked for a chance to continue our path. I thought we could walk it through together. Never thought that he could leave me to continue this path alone...... 对他而言，这只是一个未实现的诺言，对我而言，却是一道很深的伤疤。
"Making your partner happy when he is sad. This is the most contented thing i would feel. " This is what he told me. I failed to do so. I told him my only happiness now in life is you, and if you gonna leave, i will fall. I really fell, into a deep ravine that i can't seek the way out. Tears just fall unconsciosly.
I force myself to sleep...It's the only time i don't think of him. The feeling when i wake up is so painful, the thought of him not in my life anymore.
posted by Jaron @ 1:08 AM
2 Comments:
At 4/26/2006 10:26 PM,
Anonymous said…
Sleep through it. Time will not heal the wound but it can numb the pain.
Force myself to eat and sleep in that period.
Results: Onli manage to eat 1 meal per day. Thinking of him b4 sleeping at 6am everyday when the darkness of the night ends. Waking with the same feeling as u. :)
I wouldnt be that painful if I didnt enjoy the happiness of that process. *Hope u'll get numb soon.
At 4/28/2006 1:34 PM,
Anonymous said…
Of course will feel hurt and sad... but so look around u, sure there are a lot of friends that really cares a lot for u.. Buck up, life still goes on....
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