For Mum

Dedicating this song to all the great mums.

The hand that touch my forehead when i was sick. I still remember when i was in primary school, whenever i'm sick, mum will sit beside my bed and press lightly on my forehead... i felt better. No matter what wrong i did, she will always help me to solve it regardless of how disapointed she was. I still remember to thank her in my heart on my birthday, as what dad said , she was in pain the day you were born. Mum, you are great.

Another hour to count down. 7 days of vegetarian.... i finally completed my vow. Well, it seems short, but it was kind of hard for me...a borned-glutton to take vegetarian for a week. Been at the temple everyday....praying.... asking for xxx good health...An insignificant act but my little 心意. Thought through a lot of stuffs while praying.... i asked a lot of questions, found some answers in the end. I shouldn't have made others unhappy while trying to find my happiness. To let go might be a better path for us. To forgive and accept is the route to happiness.

It was saturday night. In my car driving , had just asked albin to pass him his present, tears just fell after that. I felt confused..... maybe it's because i know he's opening the present, and inside me, i felt 舍不得.... cos it was my final effort made for him, and our paths parted from that moment. I drove on the road, tears just keep falling, and memories just keep flashing in my mind, seems like letting me having a last look at it. I drove to the bus stop, we once had our burgers there at midnight.... i drove to the lane when we ate in the car...i looked at the passenger seat, where i used to hold his hand, and once his head on my arm..... looking back...I know it's time to let go.

I replied his sms saying that i know what's he wants for us, he said i still don't understand him. I thought for very long, I don't understand what he wants because he don't wish to tell me straight. I was never good at guessing, I can only take what i see. For the past weeks, i kept finding excuses to make myself feel better, but it's only deceiving myself. There were times i missed him deeply, but i held back smsing him, cos i know it's not gonna help. Glad he liked the present, at least i've done what i wished for: to make him happy. Saw this in my friend's msn : 在没有你的地方辽伤, 只有时间陪伴着我...felt exactly like it.

Thanks for all the concern friends..... I'm alright... standing strong! Cos there's still something in me that gives me strength!