Having You

I stood at the corridor every night, staring at the night lights, I will start thinking of you, tears will just flow unknowingly.

How can two person finish their life journey together? When one is tired, the other has to offer his hand and give him the strength to move on. So what if when both are tired? Would taking a break helps? Life still goes on no matter what, one of them has to initiate to carry on the journey, or it will have to end.

Learnt a valuable lesson in life, if you truly love someone, curb your anger and swallow the hurting words. Cos the regret will be deeper if I continue to hurt him with my words. Realised that my past relationships failed because of the revenge cycle, getting back at him doesn't make myself feel better or happier, only more hurt. We are humans afterall, and hurting words just fly in heated arguements, but after that..... it is all remorse and wounds. I've learnt to do that, after so much trials, but i still failed......failed to keep him in my life.

Talked to buddy, told him that how different this relationship is to me. Things we went through, the life we shared, the bond we had. The heartache strikes me while i told him all these, the memories just flowed back... felt so near but yet so hard to have it again. I have always wanted a story of my own, a story i can write until i can't write anymore. He shared that dream with me, and this believe kept me moving on. I told myself, leaving him doesn't mean the end, if there's love, the story goes on. My life was filled up and emptied once again. There were anger, laughter, sadness and happiness throughout, thinking back, i didn't regret having him in my life.