New Phone

Just bought a new phone today cos the former 6280 was driving me nuts. The dilemma that i always go through whenever i have a new phone.. old messages. Looking at the 6280, I stumbled for a while. My usual practice is to go through all the messages i had and have a last look at them, and try to save those that are important to me, but I did not do it this time. Reading the messages for the past months will only bring me sad memories. I deleted everything..... Hoping to make the past months an empty block in my life.

Seems like he's seeing someone else, or maybe he already has someone else in his heart. My mind drifted back to the past, seems like history repeating itself. Keep telling myself to let it go, I'm begninning to feel better. Walking under the night sky, my thoughts seems to clear up quite a bit, staring at the night scene, I wished that i could really appreciate everything i had.

I can't stop noticing that everyone seems to be so realistic, assessing looks, status, popularity, blah blah blah.... An ideal date will be somone cool, suave, well-known and hot favourites among your peers. I really wonder whether it does makes someone happy with these attributes. Will anyone really looks into his heart and search for kind hearted, understanding, caring and most of all, someone true to you?

I keep reminding myself that everything happen for a reason, be it good or bad, i still have to accept it somehow. The marriage vow says: for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, from this day forward, until death do us part. Touching and meaningful phrases isn't it? I wonder if everyone could do it if they say they love someone.

I hope that the day when my life ends, I can at least remember one single soul in my life who did love me that way. Have you met that person yet? If you think you did, please do cherish him/her, it might be the only chance in your life. We often neglect many things in our life when other things seems to be more attractive. And many times , we end up losing things we had. Well, that's part of learning i guess, and the cycle repeats until we learnt our lessons. Getting hurt umpteen times, i don't seem to learn my lesson though. Is that signs or pure stupidity? or just plain innocence?

Mood: Calm with a tint of sorrow.

"I could see I love you, It hurts me deep in my heart, 你还在我心上 某一个地方", this verse once left a deep impression, and looking at it now, an emotional turmoil starts stirring up again. Ending of this episode: "痛苦我会遗忘 只想看你开心的模样 新的恋情让它成长 而过去就放在心上"