Love begins with Betrayal

Sounds contradicting isn't it. Was trying to find some logic from it and it dawned upon me that i felt it before. If love does not disappear, the next love that comes along in your life has to be accompanied by betrayal for the previous love. The kind of guilty feeling that one cannot sustain for the one they might be wating for, well, it might not be a bad thing afterall, as we all often know that there's no point waiting for most cases. Moving on might be a beginning of a beautiful story. That phrase reminds me of Jialing, wonder how's she's getting on in Australia. Been almost 8 years since i saw her. Second girl i liked in my life, cum best friend in my secondary school days. I still remembered the conversation when i confessed that i liked her, wahaha...she practically forced me! "There's always someone occupying that special place in our heart." This phrase was how we started on that topic.

Christmas is over, and i really enjoyed myself. The christmas dinner at punggol was fabulous, 3 cheers for dawn & dina for the feast and yes elf too! Clubbed for 4 days in a row...worn out..haha. Thanks for all the presents too!

My dear Dr. Lim has patched up with Ken. Felt happy for them, it's really a waste if they had given up a 5 years realtionship. At least now they have given hope to many of us out there that long term relationship can be a reality. Hope he will remember this friend when he celebrates his ten years anniversary with Ken. Best wishes!

There are tonnes of love stories written everyday, and i guess the difference lies in not what has happened, but how one faces the reality. There's no right or wrong in love i suppose, and what comes out of a relatinship ultimately depends on what both parties want out of it, things they do, words they say. And the kind of emotions one gets out of a relationship is really up to the individual, and when it ends, the evaluation may differ from reality.

Sometimes it's kinda interesting to think back of past relationships and recall what was the impression i had and have another evaluation again with a rational mind this time. I often find myself doing stupid stuffs but i guess i don't regret it, cos i believe in enjoying the process of loving someone and i did. There's no happiness without sadness, and one can treasure happiness more after tasting sadness. I believe all that i went through was for a good cause, learning the facts of life and understanding the many many roles one has to upkeep in life.

My brother once taught me an important lesson: He said that he do not only have one role in his life, he's my parents' son, and he's also his girlfriend's boyfriend, and he's his friend's friend, he's my brother and so on. And things he does cannot just accomodate one party and neglect the others and when roles do clash, that's when you have to choose. He said decision in life has no right or wrong, there's only willing or not willing, happy or not happy. A decision that makes one party happy may in turn makes someone else sad. So always try to put yourself in others' shoes when you say or do something.

Planning for my KL trip in Feb. Finally! Interested parties please register early! Pests, misers, loudspeakers, stinkos, plastics & jerks will be ignored. Gluttons are welcomed!