Dried up

Announced broke. Chinese new year coming, and i don't even have the money to buy clothes.....sigh... pathetic. A new year coming, hope things will turn out well. Wife gone, brother divorced, company getting sued......sianz

Shawn said 4 years ago: "nothing daunts you". Am i trying too hard to be brave? Or am i facing too much in my life. Y do i need to protray a "forever good life" image? Is it the nature of scorpio to hide their problems? I just dun wish to trouble anyone.

Des asked: "Why did u choose this path?" U have everything a guy aspires. My fault? Shrugs....

Got bitten all over the body by 2 mad women....lol....but we really enjoyed ourselves...Friends always ask me, y did u drink so much. Well, same old reason, it let us forget our problems for that moment.

When Love Ends

Dun understand why someone can get so cold and ruthless when love ends. Is it hatred? It hurts when someone u love return yout things that you gave. The feelings that was given when the gift was bought is all shattered. Well, kept reminding myself that it is not the result that matters, as long as i'm happy doing it, it's enough. LOVE does not take offense and is not resentful.

Living by Myself

Life had never been so quiet for months, felt kinda cool and peaceful. Sitting by the adge of grass patch at raffles place, biting my lunch, suddenly i felt relieved, away from all the dramas in life. Maybe i was tired after the run, but the urge to rest is finally coming back. Lesser late nights, lesser tire.

School started, tons of assignments flying in, with requirements stricter than ever. 6000 words essays for just 50 percent of the grade, sigh....... Great to see my classmates again, the hollidays was short but i really enjoyed myself. mahjong , clubbing on Fridays TILL Sunday.....wahahah.....decadence.

Love is not coming back.....i guess.....time to take a break.....Settle the problems first. Marriage now seems like a nitemare, a cage and a path to? Confusing, guess i'm not matured enough..

Back by popular demand!
Another ten villian acts...hmm..i shall name it hot bitching acts:

11. French kissing someone's else boyfriend in v club. Sounds familiar?

12. Pinching each other butts in public. You scared other people dunno u gay izzit?

13. Arms around each other, biting you biting me. Feeling hungry?

14. Getting upset and make a big fuss when someone who is NOT your boyfriend gets scandalous with others.

15. Stealing alcohol in clubs...... Trying to drink from others bottle. Half half! Familiar?

16. Meeting old friends in club and end up with love bites all over the neck the next morning. Hmm....i know what u wanna say!

17. Going to amoy street instead of going back to v club to sleep after clubbing. Scandalous?

18. We are just "friends". So sorry, it doesn't look so simple to us!

19. Squeezing into the bed with others when there are plenty of beds elsewhere in v club. Feeling cool?

20. Dancing like a dog pissing? Wahahah.....latest joke!

What is love?

LOVE is always patient and kind. LOVE is never jealous. LOVE is never boastful or conceited. LOVE is never rude or selfish. LOVE does not take offense and is not resentful. (Quote from "A Walk To Remember")

This phrase reminds me of Sasa, wonder how is he now. Took me 2 years to get on with another relationship, and it ended again. Guess it's my fault again. What does it takes for a relationship to last? Love? Enough? Dun think so.LOVE is always patient and kind.

Going through a down period of my life, A marriage that i tried means and ways to fight for has ended, 2 mariages to be exact. Suddenly i realise getting married is such a burden.......and it hurts to see my brother so upset. I dunno what to say to him, all i can do i to support him, and help whatever he wants. Being close to both of them, I dunno what to do. LOVE is never boastful or conceited.

Am i born to be bad guy? Is it really my fault? BingBing accused me of being the third party when i was with Jarell, and in the end i accuse Rico of being the third party between us. If i said BB was wrong, am i wrong too? What makes the failure of a relationship? Was i a lousy bf and that's why he left me for someone else? Well, that was a year ago and i guess it shall be forgotten, or at least forgiven. Love does not take offense and is not resentful.

Being the third party, by fate or luck i dunno. Did i do anything wrong? I'm lost..... i'm labelled as the bad guy by everyone. Am i suppose to ask everyone to stay away from me? Or ask them to tie their partners up so that they can't run away. Are they being selfish? LOVE is never rude or selfish.

Reflection, i always tell people to look at themselves before commenting, did i do that? I hope i did.

Top ten villain acts that i condemned:

1. Borrowing money from me and take it for granted that you don't have to return cos i seems to be a dumbass to you.

2. Keep delaying debts and giving lame excuses for not paying. Example: The God said that i can't pay you with my 4D winnings cos it's not auspicious and i should use it to buy things for myself.

3. Repaying the help that i had given when you were down by backstabbing me.

4. Taking advantage of me and taking me for granted.

5. Bragging about success when there's nothing great about things you had done. Classic phrase: Do you know who am i? Although i'm only X X X, I can ban you from all the clubs! ( He actually believed it!)

6. Acussing others when you yourself is doing it. It's nature for human to err, but do you realise u r doing it too?

7. Leeching on others and expecting people to feed you when you are just a piece of trash. Common terms: Can you buy XXX for me, i pay u later(the later means after life), ni bu teng wo le! Buy this for me lah.... (Bullshit!), going out with people and keeping quiet when the bill comes, expecting the others to pay for your share.

8. Acting sweet and decent in front of others, but doing something else behind. Best oscar awards goes to? Drama and drama......

9. Cheating others of their money and properties. Stealing handphones, exaggerating phone bills when it's not their own usage, owing money and disappearing, sharing cab but never give their own share.

10. Using other people properties for illegal acts or dealings.