The Path

Dawn popped a question in the tag board that day: what if the path is long without endings (worse of all, full of obstacles???) r u still willing to walk? --- maybe u should consider running instead of walking.

Worth pondering over...hmm... A path without ending can be good too isn't it? I do hope that my path with my Mr. A will only end the day i die. Even if it is full of obstacles, that makes the relationship even more worthwhile to cherish isn't it? And i'm still willing to take the path. Vice versa, a smooth path may not be a happy one... too boring isn't it? I feel that a relationship can only be natured when both meet obstacles and overcome them, years down the road, whenever you look back at this relationship, you can be contented that you came a long way with him.

Am i still willing to walk? Yes i am - As long he's willing to take my hand.

Consider running instead of walking? Well, i think what we all should learn is to enjoy the process and not being obsessed by the result. I know it's difficult at times, but i guess that's the way to happpiness. Loving someone can be tough, and we always hope that the other party can reciprocate, but fate is cruel. And only when we start to learn to appreciate the process, then we can really enlighten ourselves with the purpose of love. Running may be good when you are eager to see the end, but you might have misssed the beautiful moments meanwhile.

To walk or to run? In bad times, i would hasten my steps and be ahead of you, to clear the obstacles ahead and wait for you to catch up. In good times, i will take your hand, and stroll through the beautiful moments together. An old friend once taught me about maintaining a relationship: Be always there to grab him when he's falling, when he's tired, give him a break, when he's running, keep up with him.

Dina hopes to see my answers for this quiz:

7 things that make me smile:
a. My little monkey
b. A LOT of nice food
c. Cats and dogs especially deedee!
d. Buddies
e. My piano
f. When my family, friends and (a.) are happy
g. WarcraftIII

7 things i believe in:
a. Karma
b. Fate
c. Telepathy
d. God
e. Depending on yourself and not others
f. Happily everafter
g. Humans are borned kind at heart

7 things i do everyday:
a. Eat a tleast 3 times
b. Sleep at least 8 hours
c. Brush teeth x 2, wash face x 2, bathe x 2, scrub x 1
d. Talk to my little monkey
e. Think of him before i sleep
f. Look at myself in the mirror
g. Dig the fridge for chocolates/ice-cream

7 people i want to see them doing this quiz
a. My little monkey
b. Elf
c. Dr. Jeremy
d. Ked
e. Gary
f. Alvin
g. Mum

Though my mum won't understand or have any chance of reading this blog, but i really wonder what will be her answers...interesting eh!!

Funeral

I remembered years ago i read a great book: Tuesdays with Morrie. There was this part about him holding his funeral before he died, so that he could appreciate all the care and concern from the people that he loved. Kind of meaningful isn't it? What's the point of showing your love when the person has already left this world, cherish what you have now. Tell him that you love him today, or else you might not have the chance again.

Kind of touched when I see words of concern in my tag board. Hee.... Well, I was just kind of lost for a while, guess it's good to be lost sometimes, and you can then appreciate the path that comes to you after that.

These words touched me:
i know i am wrong.. but i am prepared to start over again with u..learn frm mistakes..i wan to walk the path u are going to take and move on with u
I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life
maybe like wad u said.. i am a very stubborn and sensitive person... in my heart.. definately there is a person named XXXXX... be it trust or wad.. i am still ready to slowly move on with u.. til the day that we are together..
if being with me.... means that for every moment of happiness, there will be 10 moments of sadness.. what wil u do? i will change the moment of sadness to happiness...cos i know i'm going thru it becos of that one moment of happiness
i am willing to walk the path with u...this is not abt fair or not...its abt mutual giving
being together...is going to haf a life...that only 2 person is walking...a life we call OUR OWN...if its going to be like sharing..

The above phrases are of my own collection, any similarity are purely coincidental. :X

Deceased

It seems like a long journey in my heart. I hanged on and looking forward to a happy ending. When i finally saw some light, i got hit.

5th of March : Jaron pronounced dead.

Fighting back my tears was one thing i can never achieve in my life. I still can remember when i was young, I had always tried not to cried when i was caned, the pain was bearable, but the thought of my beloved mum hitting me just won't hold the tears. Unpleasant childhood? Nah..mine was great! Lolx.

Extreme awkwardness.Found it so hard to open up anymore.

I'm lost. Seems like a dead end to me this time. On my way home in PIE, there were so much things in my mind, 70km/h....i had never driven at such a speed with clear traffic.

Different Pace

Haven't been writing for the past 2 weeks, well, nothing inspiring.....so nothing to write. Had been trying to curb myself from thinking too much for the past weeks. Elf just celebrated his birthday, we clubbed ..we drank and we ate. Our 'family' had a pleasant dinner on tuesday, there was a seat reserved for my "the other half"....but in the end, sad to say it was left empty.

Came across this interesting short story: Once there was this old man and old lady, this old man tends to walk very fast and the old lady tends to be slower. The old man always wonder why the old lady walks so slow and similarly, the old lady never understands why the old man walks so fast. However, no matter how fast the old man is, and how slow the old lady is, they had never lost sight of each other before. Because of love. The old man loves her deeply and never forgets to wait for her. The old lady, never fail to hasten herself to catch up with him.

All of us walk at a different pace in our lifes.... And it is love that allow us to overcome the distance and brings two person together, even though both are at a different pace. A simple little effort to accomodate can be such a touching scene.... Do we really appreciate it? I guess there are many things in life that we often can't bring ourselves to accept what others have done, maybe we can't allow ourselves to execute such acts, but at least try to understand the fact that others have their reason for doing so. Accomodating and understanding makes a relationship smoother isn't it?

When would you think that someone loves you? When he says it's because you are gorgeous or cute? Or is it when he thinks you are a sex god to him? Or when he brings you out for romantic dinner and expensive presents? Or when he plainly tell you right in your face "i love you!"? I guess none of the above would convince me...... Those would only mean that he likes you. When there's love, it's not about merit points anymore..... it's about accepting the ugly side of you. When he's still sleeping beside you even if you turn fat and ugly. The smallest cheapest gift can represent love as long there is meaning encrypted. The kind of self-scrificial actions might be a better impact of "i love you!".

爱与被爱不一定成正比。(Abstracted from fish leong's 可惜不是你) Found this statement quite meaningful. Love can never be fair, and can never be compared. What you have given may not be all requitted, just be glad that you enjoyed the process and let fate decide the ending. Been telling this to myself all my life, though i seemingly doing stupid things in the eyes of others, but that is what i will do for the sake of love, and i had never regretted. Move on when it is time to move on, at least I've tried my best . Easier said than done..lolx. Well, have to always remind ourselves that when you realise that there's no result to something....hogging on to it might be a hindrance to both parties and for his well being, it is time to let go, give him a chance to move on too. Love can take another form.

Been slacking on my school work for this week, guess i better buck up. Pray hard.....lolx.