Mum Cried

26th of June, it's my mama's and brother's birthday. Four of us had lunch together, dad, mum, me and cizheng, everything seems happy. I reached home 1130pm, mum was sitting in the living room, watching TV in the dark. She's usually asleep by 1030pm. I came out after bathing, she asked me a funny question, and started crying. I felt so sad... I asked what happened.. she kept quiet as usual. She never tell us about how she feels or what happened whenever she had problems with dad.

I kept probing, she just said nothing. I guess i really resembles her in this aspect. I wanted so much to console her, but i really dunno how. I felt useless...

喜欢一个人，可以是一个人的事，不一定会是两个人的事. I guess it takes a lot of courage and determination to continue to love someone despite that he shows no interest in you anymore. Someone said this before: Don't waste time on people who doesn't want to waste theirs on you. But i still believe: Love still exist even though he's not with you anymore. Am i wasting my time???

I guess no matter how strong a person can be, he still needs someone to recognise his existence once in a while. To know that someone somewhere is willing to be with you is quite important isn't it? Was telling J about the sentence i really found meaningful: The marriage vow: for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, from this day forward, until death do us part.

To all out there with a blissful marriage: Best wishes!
To all those who is searching for one: Your time will come!
To those who did not cherish: Serve you right, retribution will come!
Lastly to all whom i loved: You are remembered....

Looks like it's gonna be a sleepless night.

What's lost and what's found?

Suddenly felt the urge to express my heartfelt gratitude to people around me. Sounds cliche, but really thanks for being there for me when i felt like all was gone. He've lost.....lost someone who used to care so much for him, lost his promises, lost my faith in him,in exchange for winning his battle for freedom. I've found..... found people who stood by me, found meaning in friendship, found courage when i've to pull myself up again, and lastly, found myself again.

To my best buddy Ked, I know you are angry with me for not telling you what happened. Keke, but you heard me crying out for help while you were sleeping didn't you? That sentence really touched me: Actually i'm angry that why you didn't tell me anything!

My closest friend gary, I know you didn't mention much about it, but i know you tried hard to make me laugh even though i know you weren't in the best of mood.

Dearest Alvin Di, i can tell it's difficult to console me but that long chat that night was nice enough, felt much better after that.

For elf, thanks for having such great confidence in me. Appreciated. Happiness will come eventually.

D.C, thanks for being always there and supporting me no matter what, even when i'm wrong!! lolx
Far faraway Dina, thanks for the frequent "How are you? & feeling better?" Even if you are not here, I felt your care & concern!

Joan, suddenly pop up a power motivating quotion: You are always the best to me!

Keith, you actually remembered to call me back after all your busy schedules. Appreciated!

Ken, Cindy, Jennifer, Wolverine, Lionel, Robin & Albin, my weekends are so much easier with you all around!

Bloggy tag boarders: So touched with the encouragements!

Lastly, for this special someone: thanks for being around for these days. You really brighten up my life. I don't really know how to express myself either, maybe let the hearts do the talking then. Feel like giving you a big hug! :P

Dedicating this song to all my dear friends!
Remember Me This Way by Jordan Hill

Test Test

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?